It's been many days since we took the time to lay on the floor in the office and stream a show from Netflix. But I stumbled across the whole series "Firefly," and figured Twyla would like it, given her very discriminating taste in entertainment. It's a shame the series only lasted for one season, but I can understand why it did. Die hard Trekkie types wouldn't be able to handle the fact that it's more about plot and character development than about Sci-Fi technogeekiness (did I just make up a word?). The plots and dialogue are witty and not meant for the American Idol crowd. There's no socialist utopia idiocy. Without you actually going to watch it for yourself, the only quick way I know to describe it is: The Old Western frontier set 500 years in our future. My favorite aspect of the show is the struggle to remain free and being willing to go without a lot of material comfort rather than be a slave to a totalitarian government and society. Funny, that wasn't the original purpose of this post.
Moxie is quite the energetic dog. She is as healthy and happy as she can be. She has the run of quite a few acres up here on our mountain. Depending on where we need to go and what we are doing, she gets to ride to town about half of the time, and she is a pleasure when it comes to riding. She sit's quietly; doesn't get anxious about anything.
New "Chicken Little" on the right. |
Last night, we spread out the blanket and I ever so carefully got down on the floor. Moxie was nearly beside herself with happiness. She would get to be laying between master and mistress. For Moxie, this is Nirvana. Seeing Moxie in that state just reduces Twyla to a fit of giggles, and I thought it would make for a good photo, although I wish I had a remote for the camera, so I could mount it on the tripod, and instead of depending on the timer feature, be able to hit the shutter at the right moment.
Once moxie gets into that position, she goes limp as a wet dish rag. Everything is perfect in her world. But if I get up, or even act like I'm getting up, she goes straight to a state of alert. I've had several dogs, but never one that was so keen on wanting to be so attentive of my every move when possible. So getting up to get the camera off of the desk was a major chore for two reasons. Even the tiniest movement that involves bending or twisting my torso can feel like someone is twisting a knife in my back. Secondly, Moxie has a hard time understanding that I'm not really going anywhere, I'm just trying to move a few feet.
Three Amigos in Moxie heaven |
After attempting to take seven or eight photos, I got the second one you see here. Sometime later, Twyla got up for some reason and Moxie followed her. When they came back, Twyla laid back down and then Moxie, wanting that exclusive spot between us, started over me, but then stepped on my abdomen. This sent me into breathless gasps, teeth and fist clenching, and tears forming. Now the poor dog hasn't got any clue as to what she just did, but at this point I just can't stand having the dog leaning in on my left side with a broken rib.
I get enough breath in my lungs to muster up a very forceful command to "MOVE!" and this would be my undoing. She was laying on her side facing me, and to reposition herself to get up, she pressed her back against Twyla and proceeded to shove her paws straight out against me to make room to stand. Her lower paw thrusting directly into my rib cage. I screamed. Er, actually I SCREAMED!! Every muscle I had originally strained on the fall felt like they were now tearing anew. After the reflex of expelling all the air out of my lungs and every muscle in my torso seeming to have locked up as if I had been tasered, I wondered if I would pass out from the pain and actually hoped I would. I had to concentrate on trying to make enough muscles relax in order to inhale.
Poor Moxie now lay in the doorway looking confused and frightened.
Later on, and it took a good while for the pain to subside, I thought about how much that dog loves me unconditionally, and could never conceive of trying to hurt me. She was actually trying to be obedient to me at the very moment she hurt me. I thought about how sometimes, in our relationships with other humans, we do things that end up hurting each other without even realizing it, because of things we aren't even aware of.
Every one of us walks around with a black box inside, and a special button outside somewhere that nobody sees. Every once in a while, somebody pushes that button by sheer accident and a reaction takes place where the bystanders and the poor button presser are left in a state of bewilderment, wondering, "What in the hell was all THAT about!?!?!"
Me love you. I can has scurd now? |
Sometimes it's major and sometimes it's minor. Most of the time it's because we perceive an offense where none was intended. What if, when such a painful thing happens to us, instead of lashing out at the "button presser," we instead asked ourselves why we felt like reacting the way we did? What if we could muster up the incredible grace to assume that the "button pusher" was innocent of any malice of forethought? What if God allowed me that moment of incredible pain in order to prepare me for something similar down the road?
Just a thought.
That advice was precisely what saved my marriage! We'd been together 5 years and were on the verge of splitting when we went to couples counseling, and we learned a lot of good stuff there. But the kicker, the key point that saved us, was learning to NOT to assume that a person was guilty of hurtful motives when they said/did something that hurt our feelings. Especially when it's someone who loves you!
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